I have gotten sick
Posted: Sat Jan 31, 2009 4:32 am
While I took 10 days of vacation time last week I decided to check why for sometime I haven't been feeling very well.
In my history I have had two stents put into my heart and suffer from arthritis from head to foot.
The stents date back to about two yrs before I first signed on to the old site where during chat rm nights I would say that there where some issues that I was going to look into and never did.The costs for the stents where uninsured and the scripts where to maintain just out of site.So for about 5yrs I have been on and off those prescriptions.
My whole life I have done whatever I wanted,ate what I wanted,smoked because I wanted-Kind of get the picture??.No wife,grandchildren,free spirit.
What scares the living crap out of me is those visions of people(older)seen on TV when they cannot afford to live and have no insurance with like 10 to 20 prescriptions they are forced to try to go to Canada for.A walking medicine cabinet.Portions of food that is so foreign to my life style I can't even conceive ever doing that.I currently have insurance,but with the way the economy is going,who knows how long that job will last.That is said with having been there going on 6yrs.Hell,I tried to get help with the arthritis and was given the wrong dose by the pharmacy needing to rush to a emergency to check to permanent liver damage.I said that I wasn't going to chance that again and was somewhat able to control that with over the counter Aleve.
So lately I have been I have been sharing what have been going on with me with PM's with some close members and Admins who I have known for yrs.I needed to prove to myself that I wasn't just whining again and that I was in fact following threw with checking things out.
So all this said-I went to my primary doctor and to get blood test done.
The results are somewhat in.
It was found that I have type II diabetes needing for now to treat with pills and waiting to see if it can be controlled that way without needing injections.A controlled diet to which I will find out what that is all about on Monday.The threat is it could result in loss of sight,loss of legs/toes etc.Yeah I know most say this is no big deal and most say they know tons of people who live normal lives.There is no cure.For me,living a free wheeling life style,I feel trap.All I wanted was my life as it was doing whatever I wanted and now after all these yrs of hard work,that with this tied to pills or shots,that is not to be.Damm it.
The other thing was found is high blood pressure.Yeah more pills. ](*,)
After going to see the heart doctor I go for a trend mill stress test on Tuesday where they try to induce chest pains tracking it injecting radioactive fluids.I expect to fail that.If they tell me I need another stent I plan on telling them to treat it medically.Even with my co-pay insurance it would put me yrs behind.I woke up today and you gotta kind of pick your battles not to become "that walking medicine cabinet".
In ten frigging days I have gone from a bottle of Aleve on my computer table to six prescription bottles.
This it a OT section and I needed to share this with my ASV family.I have always felt the site is surely about vans,but more importantly it is about people.
Now it is ON with the build of Ole Yellar,redoing my Fleamarket business,and ALL the plans I have talked about over all these yrs.I do not plan in any way to go quietly and have any health issues stand in my way.I just don't want to suffer in the end with a loss of sight or anything like that.I am going to pick my battles to fight to get to the goals I always want.Now I am ticked off about all this.
Well rant over and thanks for letting me vent some folks.
In my history I have had two stents put into my heart and suffer from arthritis from head to foot.
The stents date back to about two yrs before I first signed on to the old site where during chat rm nights I would say that there where some issues that I was going to look into and never did.The costs for the stents where uninsured and the scripts where to maintain just out of site.So for about 5yrs I have been on and off those prescriptions.
My whole life I have done whatever I wanted,ate what I wanted,smoked because I wanted-Kind of get the picture??.No wife,grandchildren,free spirit.
What scares the living crap out of me is those visions of people(older)seen on TV when they cannot afford to live and have no insurance with like 10 to 20 prescriptions they are forced to try to go to Canada for.A walking medicine cabinet.Portions of food that is so foreign to my life style I can't even conceive ever doing that.I currently have insurance,but with the way the economy is going,who knows how long that job will last.That is said with having been there going on 6yrs.Hell,I tried to get help with the arthritis and was given the wrong dose by the pharmacy needing to rush to a emergency to check to permanent liver damage.I said that I wasn't going to chance that again and was somewhat able to control that with over the counter Aleve.
So lately I have been I have been sharing what have been going on with me with PM's with some close members and Admins who I have known for yrs.I needed to prove to myself that I wasn't just whining again and that I was in fact following threw with checking things out.
So all this said-I went to my primary doctor and to get blood test done.
The results are somewhat in.
It was found that I have type II diabetes needing for now to treat with pills and waiting to see if it can be controlled that way without needing injections.A controlled diet to which I will find out what that is all about on Monday.The threat is it could result in loss of sight,loss of legs/toes etc.Yeah I know most say this is no big deal and most say they know tons of people who live normal lives.There is no cure.For me,living a free wheeling life style,I feel trap.All I wanted was my life as it was doing whatever I wanted and now after all these yrs of hard work,that with this tied to pills or shots,that is not to be.Damm it.
The other thing was found is high blood pressure.Yeah more pills. ](*,)
After going to see the heart doctor I go for a trend mill stress test on Tuesday where they try to induce chest pains tracking it injecting radioactive fluids.I expect to fail that.If they tell me I need another stent I plan on telling them to treat it medically.Even with my co-pay insurance it would put me yrs behind.I woke up today and you gotta kind of pick your battles not to become "that walking medicine cabinet".
In ten frigging days I have gone from a bottle of Aleve on my computer table to six prescription bottles.
This it a OT section and I needed to share this with my ASV family.I have always felt the site is surely about vans,but more importantly it is about people.
Now it is ON with the build of Ole Yellar,redoing my Fleamarket business,and ALL the plans I have talked about over all these yrs.I do not plan in any way to go quietly and have any health issues stand in my way.I just don't want to suffer in the end with a loss of sight or anything like that.I am going to pick my battles to fight to get to the goals I always want.Now I am ticked off about all this.
Well rant over and thanks for letting me vent some folks.